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Sunday, November 30, 2008

When I Was Young


When I was young
I could not wait to grow up
And now when I grow up
I realize that an injured knee
Can be healed easier and faster
Than a broken heart

I want to be young forever
But as it is impossible
I hope that i can grow old
With the ones that really love me
So much
So that i do not need
To heal my broken heart again and again...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

I Have Been Tagged

1.What are you wearing?
♥ Baju free entah siapa punya hahahahaha


2. What did you do last night?
♥ I went to Pasar Malam by foot with my two younger sisters, then it was raining heavily and we had to ask our dad to take us home. Hahaha


3. Favorite Memory with significant other?

Hm. Walking with abang to go home when i was in Melbourne

4. Last gift received?
Kain batik sutera Indonesia from my sister

5. Describe the last picture you were in?
I don't remember lah

6. Last thing you ate?
I eat a lot now. And the last thing i ate was Roti Sardin

7. Last thing you drank?
Pepsi

8. What kind of underwear are you wearing?

(Next question pls........)

9. What was your best vacation?
Lake McKenzie in Queensland, Australia. The place is damn nice! I want to go there again!

10. What are you most looking forward to in the next vacation?
I don't know when will i be able to go for any vacation again. Wait till i have my own money okay

11. What is happening around you?
Terengganu is now in Musim Tengkujuh now. We have to be at home almost the time because it is always raining. And we need more than 2 days to dry our clothes

12. What is your shoe size?

Depends on the brand. Sometimes mine is 6, 7 and for another type of measurement, could be 37 or 38

13. Last event you dressed up for?
My sister's wedding

14. What is the most cheap thing you bought?
ABC warung sebelah rumah aku ni RM1 aje

15. What is the most expensive thing you have on right now?

Nothing. Haha

16. What is your favorite smell?
Bau sabun attack. Pelik kah aku?

17. Is there something you really want to buy right now?
Saya nak beli baju baru la

18. What are your nicknames?
My close friends call me Kmar. Normal friends call mee Akmar. The ones that do not know me so much call me Nurul

19. What are your plans for today?
Study

20. Describe your friendster picture
Just my personal picture. Nothing special

21. Describe your myspace picture
I don't have myspace

22. Describe your facebook picture
Same answer with question number 20

23. What did you do last weekend?
Staying at home doing nothing. Hahahaha. Gossiping with sisters is a very interesting thing to do okay

23. What did you do last weekend?
I don't care. As long as i am comfortable with it. Then i will love it

I tag Cik Nad, Cik Kama, Cik Nabil, Cik Liz. Hahahaha.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Never Give Up


Never give up,
Never lose hope.
Always have faith,
It allows you to cope.
Trying times will pass,
As they always do.
Just have patience,
Your dreams will come true.
So put on smile,
You'll through your pain.
Know it will pass,
And strength you will gain.

-Charlie Remiggio

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Perasmian World Endurance Championship in Terengganu

Semalam randomly, saya dihubungi oleh rakan saya, Siti Munirah, dia meminta tolong untuk saya mencukupkan orang yang diperlukan sebagai Petugas/Crew untuk acara pembukaan World Endurance Championship di Stadium Sultan Mizan Zainal Abidin. Terkejut juga kerana dieorang memanggil orang sangat2 la last minute. Tapi tak mengapa, saya yang tiada kerja, lalu join tanpa segan silu. Diminta untuk memakai baju kurung dan sopan, rupa-rupanya dieorang mencari perempuan untuk menjadi penyambut tetamu. Oh.

Ruang legar depan pintu masuk utama stadium

Tugas kami senang sahaja, menyambut peserta-peserta luar negara yang menyertai acara ini, dan menunjukkan tempat duduknya dalam stadium itu. Yang penting sila senyum selalu. Haha. Daripada pengalaman dan cakap2 orang, memang peserta dari UAE agak pelik, dieorang pergi ke mana2 pun, dieorang minta untuk diberi tempat duduk yang special dan diasingkan daripada peserta2 negara lain. Ya, sungguh pelik, tapi tak mengapa, kami hanya mengikut arahan orang atasan, yang sememangnya telah menyediakan tempat duduk mereka yang duduk berasingan daripada peserta2 negara lain.

Tag Kami

Saya berpeluang melihat Agong dan permaisuri, serta Dato' Najib dan isterinya. Permaisuri Nur Zahirah nyata lebih cantik dilihat depan mata berbanding daripada dalam gambar. Baginda juga kelihatan lebih langsing berbanding sebelum ini. Dan yang pasti, baju-baju yang dipakai baginda, saya selalu berkenan dan teringin sangat untuk ada baju-baju seperti itu. (Ya Kmar, sila jangan berangan, kerana baju-bajunya adalah mahal sekali. Haha.) Saya mengagumi Permaisuri ini kerana dia adalah antara beberapa permaisuri diraja yang memakai tudung. Tidak perlu untuk berpakaian ketat, jarang atau singkat, baginda memang sentiasa kelihatan berseri dengan gayanya yang tersendiri.

Perasmian sangat simple. Ada tarian dan persembahan sikit2, kemudian perarakan masuk peserta2, kemudian ucapan perasmian. Tidak lupa, bunga api. Huhu. Sangat ramai orang yang datang dan sangat ramai orang yang bertugas. Sungguh pening kepala melihat kelompok manusia yang ramai itu.

Kebosanan yang amat lalu mengambil gambar berhampiran pokok yang dihias dan dicantas menjadi replika kuda

Saya pulang pada pukul 11.45pm. Selepas tugas saya selesai. Enak juga ye menjadi penyambut tetamu dikala kebosanan begini. Hiks~

Saturday, November 1, 2008

A 23 years old woman



Today i am 23 years old. Officially. I do not feel like i am 23 already, i feel i am younger that that numbers, plus i am still childish. At the age of 23, one of my sister got married already, and at the age of 23 also, my mum already had a daughter. But me? Ahaks. I feel i am nothing. My mind is not so mature yet, and i still have problems in doing decision for myself. So obviously, i am not ready for marriage yet as i am still practicing to be a good woman to other people.

As i grow up, i realize and understand more about the world. I know who really love me, and who don't. I was in several relationship before but they didn't work, so they ended up just like that. The guys that were with me before didn't love me at all, or at least they only love me for sometime only. Not all but generally. The last time i broke up, i swore to myself that i don't want to be in love again until i find someone that really loves me with all his heart. I don't know what will happen in the future, but i really hope and everyday i pray that I will find the one that will always be with me and by my side. I pray the best, God knows better than we do, right? =)

I understand much more about friendship and i can differentiate between a best friend and not so best friend. And most important, the difference between a real family and the one who doesn't. The ones that will always be there for me when i need them. The ones that understand my situation and never make me feel more depressed. The ones that know i am sad even though i keep quiet at that time. The ones that know i want something only by the way i look at them, even though i do not tell him/her anything yet. Yes, these types of people are the ones that really care about me, and never let me down. Thanks for my beloved family members and bestfriends for that.

And at this age, i am still hunting for the right job. Being a fresh graduate is not easy. With 3 job offers that i decline to accept, not including the interviews that i refuse to come, i can say that i am quite demanding and choosy fresh graduate. I want to be in my preferred industry, and i do not want to waste my time doing something that i don't like. Plus, for science graduate, it is hard to find a good job if you have only bachelor's degree. Our situation is not same like commerce/engineering/medicine/education students. For us to have a good and stable position in a company, many of us further our study to the advanced degrees. We have to work in research area, and of course to be eligible to do research you have to have at least a Master's degree, or PhD the better for more confidence. That's what i am trying to do, focusing on where i want to study, in the right course, so that my job opportunities will be better. So do not be surprise to see science students try their best to achieve excellent marks, because we have to do that to further our study ASAP or else we have to wait for some time until we meet the requirement to further our study. I really hope that i can further my study ASAP so that i will finish my Master's degree at least before i am 26/27, the age that i am planning to get married (oopss). Hehe.

In whatever i do, i do pray to Allah to help me in everything. Because only Him knows the best for us. Because everything that happen to our life, Allah has the power to rule all of them. I believe that everything in my life happens for reasons, that Allah determines to me, that He wants me to learn something from them. So i just pray that Allah gives me strength and courage to go through everything in my life. I trust Him and i know that He has planned the best not only for me, but also to all of you guys. May Allah bless us always...